You pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start AGAIN?
I can tell you...it's hard to make lemonades when all you are given is LIMES.
Almost FOUR years ago at this time, I had my whole life ahead of me. I just graduated college and gotten my first "real" job, I was planning my wedding, buying a condo with Hubs, and life was "cookie cutter-ish", minus a few bumps in the road as far as dealing with ex's and a soon to be step-kiddo.
THREE years ago, My absolutely BEAUTIFUL B was born. It was the best time of my life (minus the Jaundice and being hospitalized again after being released 2 days before...but it all worked out fine). Then less than a month later, Hubs lost his job.
Fast Forward Three years, we lost our condo to Foreclosure, had to move in with relatives, moved out and into an apartment owned by my Aunt and Uncle....Hubs still hasn't found a steady job....Then because we moved so far from his overnight barely over min.wage job, he ended up totaling TWO of our TWO cars in a month of each other...so he quit that (hour long drive each way, might I add) & started working EARLY mornings delivering papers and then three months later, just this past weekend, got into an accident (NOT HIS FAULT THIS TIME) and we are waiting to hear..and did I mention, it was my BRAND NEW (MY first NEW CAR EVER) JEEP (of 4 months)...we have to wait a week for the stinking appraisal (but as of right now, from me seeing it last night, it's going to be EXTENSIVE work, if not totaled...and if it's not totaled, I probably am going to be scared driving it with B because it's so bad--Frame is completely bent...the Driver's seat totally BROKE OFF where it sits...and all my direct sale stuff was inside, now complete with shards of glass!).
Life can only get better from here. It's been such a painful journey, thus far, that it makes me question: what am I doing wrong? What is God trying to tell me? I have sat and cried, I have laughed from all the drama when I thought nothing worse could happen--but then things did get worse. I write this now and it seems bad but it doesn't do justice to living this. I am glad to have my health, my family, the roof over my head & always having food for my family. But really, I just need a break. I appreciate my family and my husband's family for the support and love they have shown us. Without them, we would be on a street corner somewhere and my kids would not be spoiled to the extent they are (a good spoiling, of course!).
So Thank YOU to everyone who has supported and loved us, Who has helped us, Who has supported my businesses when others claimed I will just fail. I am doing what I can to get by and I know someday I will be able to support and give you back all you have given to us. We Love You.
(By the way, Last Night we watched that movie with Ben Affleck..Company Man--I think it's called--where the guy loses his CEO type job...Yeah, his brother in law gives him a job when he loses his house and has to sell his Porsche (poor guy, lol)....depressing but I think we top that right now....So if anyone wants a new script, call me. Or better yet, give my husband the directing job)
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